April 3, 2005
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It's now April. By the time July starts, I will be out of Tsukuba. I'll probably still be in Japan but I will say goodbye to this wonderful place that I've come to love. So that leaves me three months here. What am I gonna do with the time that is left for me here? How I use my time in the next twelve weeks will probably decide, or at least greatly influence my thoughts on whether or not my year here was a fruitful one.
April marks the beginning of a new school year in Japan... a whole new year. New people, new environment. Bicycle traffic jams, rookie cyclists, cherry blossoms everywhere. Various minor construction projects completed on campus and all that good stuff.
All this renewal... somehow inside me, it feels as if all of this is telling me to move on. Clear my mind of all that has been bothering me for so long. Look at the new, set aside all that I have been looking up until now and put it in a treasure chest marked "wonderful memories".
Yet even so, these feelings won't go away, not for a while. These thoughts will still be in the back of my mind. My willingness to help, care, and comfort will still be there. No matter how pointless, no matter how useless...
Call me stupid, call me sad, pathetic, pitiful.
But after all, I've never cared this much about a girl before...
But I know... I'll keep driving forward.
But no one said I couldn't look in the rearview mirror.
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